graciegirl150

Well, basically, everything has gone to shit just like the title entails. Apparently my 2 best friends talk to my ex boyfriend about me behind my back about how stupid I am and how much I piss them off and I just really wish that things could be different. He's supposed to be my best friend and the person I'll always love but apparently he hates me and everyone else does too I just.... I know this is stupid but I really hate being in the shadows like this when everyone else is so happy talking shit behind my back I just............. I hate everything right now how I can't trust anybody  

So I really want to dye my hair a light blue or something, maybe like this or this, but my boyfriend just told me he HATES dyed hair, even though I've had my red and black hair for over half a year. I really want to do this but I don't want him to hate it... I don't know what to do honestly. I know the obvious answer is "Just do it, if he hates it so what," but I guess I can't just do that. I've been trying to convince him it'll be better than what I have but Idk if it's working. Help?

Last night, had the biggest fight with 2 of my friends and my boyfriend, all about the same thing and about eachother and I had my first mental breakdown of the school year Also, I had my first suicidal thoughts.... Ever. It was bad... Now, I'm just scared. I've always had depressed thoughts of just cutting or burning, but never actually considering killing myself.... What if it happens again.... What if I give in... What if I lose this game and leave the world as consequence....?  I'm just so scared.............